May 2015 VIP room, Gleneagles hospital singapore. I can't do anything. I was only able to lie on the radiation table. This was so bad for me. Even people looking at me, they will say that i am okay, they just looking to my face. They dont know what happend in my soul. They dont know how poor me at this time. No body knows about this. I saw my grandma always crying all the night. She can't hide the sadness, she can't hold the tears and this make me feel so useless. I hate this time.
All the therapies and treatments almost done for some days. 12times I should go in and out from that machine. Sometimes really hurt, sometimes really bored . I bored to survive with this fucking life anymore. I can't make all the people cry for me. I can't let them sad looking at me.
I really want to get out from this bed. This is killing me softly.
During the recovery all people start to leaving me alone. They should be busy as always. They back to their reality. And i still here. In the bed with IV tube, fucking uniform and no make up face. This really bored time. Till the nurse come to me, she looking at me and suddenly she said "okey, from now on you will be happy, enjoy the show." She give me tv channel that show "The Heirs drama series" i know this drama was so famous, but i really dont like the drama life. This just fake story that no one can't found in the reality. It's okay, I just give up and watch the drama everyday. Sometimes i laughing and crying, I didn't realize when I started enjoying this show. I will be mad if I missed the scene. Ah, I am being crazy with this drama. Three weeks passed with this new habit.
I am being crazy with lee min ho, since I see him. I started to looking all about him.
Lee min ho was born in Seoul, 22 June 1987. He have one oldest sister. He was ambitious to be a soccer star, but fact said that he was born to be handsome boys with Charisma.
I am being crazy to looking for his album, and i know all the songs.
- my everything is the most awesome song for me.
- you and I, and I am deeply in love with this.
- travel, this always be my back song everywhere i go
- paradise in love, the beautiful song
- love hurt, this is my favorite song as soundtrack of the heirs
- extreme, hah! I see him was so extreme
- song for you, I feel like he sing for me
- stalker, this a fun music
- love motion.
Not only the songs, all the dramas I've watched!
- mackerel run, this was a funny drama for me.
- my English teacher, he look so stupid
- cuty hunter, awesome. Fucking awesome men!!!
- the heirs, for sure this drama the first time I falling in love with him
- faith, gentlemen!
- i am sam, crazy men! He act with my other boyfriend TOP
- personal taste, this look so good. He look so smart
- boys over flowers, ommo !! Curly boy !
I know this sound so offer, but he really heal me when i get the hard time. I dont know, since I saw him, all the sadness that I felt, suddenly gone.
I dont know when i got the bored time, during my recovery that frustrated me, he made it so colorful!
Thank nurse, -mand also Lee min ho oppa !!
And now, the first time I see him clearly, not on my screen, but on the stage...
January, 16 at Grand Peace Palace at Kyung Hee University in Seoul.
1st talk concer of Lee Min Ho !!!
